无题

一会儿思索，一会儿沉醉；
一个人烦躁，一个人体会；
盼望过，也绝望过，却无法彻底放弃；
好比死后挣扎，迷茫的，徒劳的；
无奈的心情比上忧伤来得更深刻，更难以抒怀。

发现了自己的渺小，发现了世界的残酷；
很多东西并不是自己能够掌握的，更别妄想要驾驭之；

活在自己的世界太久，己难分真实假象；
你希望美梦被惊醒吗？
回顾过往，发觉幻想太多，
就像为自己编写小说，设定梦寐以求的情节，
独乐乐的享受是难以形容的。

另一种说法是每个人应活在自己的世界里，
只有坚定的活在自己的世界里，才能做完一些事情；
若一颗心放出去，面对众多标准和概念的干扰，
该如何走路大概都是一个问题；
一条狭窄的小路走到黑头，胜似在人群熙嚷的大广场里游荡徘徊。
在广场里若只学会游戏和娱乐，失去方向没有目标，而那个孤单且坚定的人却已经上路了。

人生如梦，是是非非分不清；
黑白之间必有灰，也没有所谓的对与错；
个人基础很重要，必须持续不断的磨炼；
根基打得好，房屋才能建得高，建得稳。

Somewhere in Selangor

We are naturally feel better and we are more positive when our batteries are fully charged, don't you think so? Lack of energy and vitality lower its ability to cope with problems and challenges in life, isn't it true?

My battery has been fully charged today. I spent the afternoon rambling with my friend, it's so relaxing and I felt so good.

I sauntered through a natural avenue of trees, looking at a very beautiful lake, the sun bouncing off it surface. The smell and 'ozone', warmth and living. Everything is so peaceful at that moment and I could feel that I was surrounded by positive ions.

Undeniable, natural environment can really boost my positive energy that I need particularly when I am having mood swing.

To stay feeling our best, we should ask ourselves: Who gives us energy? Today onwards, I will protect myself from energy vampires.

It 'WOW' me when my friend made a left turn (while driving) because the scenery was totally blocked by trees before that.

 First time I came here, I was so amazed by the beautiful view.

Dare to swim across the lake? Yes, if I am a Olympic swimmer.

 

 I will come here very often if it's located nearby my place. I swear!

I could hardly see a coconut tree in the city.

 Like a painting, right?

The reflection in my sunglasses!

Enjoy the Night with Mongo Mojito!

Days get shorter and shorter, nights longer and longer. 

Do you ever feel like loving the night with cocktails? 

Listening to music while drinking with your good buddies? 

Do you ever feel like a freeman? 

Throw off your worries when release all your pent-up emotions. 

So if you can't sleep at night,

Grab your friends, 

Slip into something fabulous,

Skip the beers and enjoy the cocktails!

 Fellxion

Eaven

 May

I love getting together with my girls~

写给自己的信 A letter to myself

我到底是怎么了？为何总是这样？可是，我真的到了崩溃的边缘。

每次遇到不开心的事，就会胡思乱想，缅怀过去的点点滴滴，又是一场大哭。

这种情况之下，另一个正面的我就会出现安抚负面的我，就如左肩上小天使和右肩上小恶魔。 

难道你真的相信梁文音的 《哭过就好了》？问题如果无法根治，就会一直累积，病魔一直滋长，到了某个阶段，你也无法肯定何时会骤然爆发，却还一直压抑，勉强熬过去，那时就真的要找心理医生。我用过很多方式来解脱，画的，涂鸦的，写的，唱得，甚至跟花草树木聊天，与一望无际的天空倾诉，这些都无法拔掉病魔的根。

朋友，这两个字对我来说有着很深奥的意思，我也不知如何解析，但我唯一肯定的是朋友是没有一辈子的，当旧的去了，不开心的也随之而去，迎面而来就是新的友人。家人，对我而言是非常重要，就算身边没有任何一个朋友，只要家人还在就好；就算遇到断人励志的事情，只要家人一句鼓励之言，我永远屹立不倒！所谓 “家家有本难念的经”，我的姐妹缘薄，时常意见不合而起冲突；也不见得父母特别宠爱我。

人家说次子/女都是比较叛逆，我承认。青少年时期， 是行动上的叛逆；到了年轻时段，就是思想上的叛逆。 我很向往自由，那种无拘无束的生活，偶尔想像自己变成小鸟在天空中翱翔；就有时想像自己成了一条小鱼在传说中的东海龙宫里遨游。我爱好幻想，有很多的憧憬，但是现实生活却不能如此，多么悲哀啊~

谁不想成功？谁不想在有生之年干下辉煌成绩？我也有梦想，我也想成为人上人，对社会，国家，甚至世界有所贡献，望能成为历史人物。当编制的梦想一个个变成泡影时，有再多的梦想又怎样？能不心碎吗？能不去在意吗？能真的放开一切吗？曾经尝试过，但我做不到。

人不是冷血的，对每一件事情都付出感情，就如一瓶上等的女儿红，一杯一杯慢慢地斟酌。有个经历沧桑的朋友对我说过，不要计划得太完美，也不用去计划那么多，一切随缘。此刻，我真的能够体会这句含义。“缘”是很奇妙的，它无所不在。工作上的待遇，人事上的接触，注定的姻缘，全都因 “缘” 一字而改变。

每天观察人，觉得大部分的人都是跟着一个步伐走，就这样到达一个同样的目的地；有些人，走出自己的步伐，别人看了也许会皱起眉头，但是谁 管的了？《巾帼枭雄》里的柴九说: 人生有多少个十年?最重要是活得痛快!

我曾经以为，工作上能爬到头就是事业成功，可是却忽略了其它的因素。如果一个人每天要承担无数的压力，天天过得惊心胆跳，无暇理会精神上的创伤，就算有权有势有钱那又怎样？我开始慢慢地领会到什么叫作知足常乐，找一份自己能够应付又能享受的工作，赚到的钱我要旅游见世界，做好自己的本分，全心全意付出后再随意而安，可谓“行行出状元”嘛！

我不否认，我的确是个固执的人。就像一般人，都是喜听好事，拒听坏事。我知道，有些人的言语是善意的；有些则是要打击你。就是因为早早就有着这种概念，把心墙筑得高高，甚至密不透风，不让人踏进我的范围，这也许是一种自我保护的形式吧。 坦白说，我小时候有被强抱（不是强暴）的阴影，造成我至今也不喜欢被人随意触碰，过于亲密的举动会惹我反感。难以相信，对吧？人们眼中的我是个活泼好动的女生，可是又有谁知道我的苦衷呢？

没有男朋友，不是我的错。为何别人总说我挑剔，把择偶条件放得太高？爸爸说：缘分未到，莫强求。 我相信缘份，要来的，自然会来；不是你的，就不是你的。我思想保守，会爱惜自己的身体和灵魂，把最好的留给能够与你携手到老的人。我不会玩弄感情，也不想浪费人家的时间，一刀斩乱麻就是我的做法。世上有哪个女子不渴望被人呵护疼爱？望月老的眷顾，能得好姻缘。

有时后，用美妙的言语来贴切地形容自身的心境，也是一种享受。我就是享受这种用文字编制成文章的过程，好欣慰，好满足。 我虽然很久没书写华文字，但是只要兴趣仍在，就算写久了英文部落格，还是一样能写出一篇华语作文。

写完后，感觉好多了。最近，身体总是出状况，目前还在养病时期。等痊愈以后，就去做一次身体检查。我要一个健康的体魄来走我未来的路。 我相信，只要活着就有希望!

如果你有时间，请问一问自己，何时有真真地快乐过？ 聆听心的声音，它到底需要什么？

A Thank You Note

Today was my last day at Essence Communications. A very emotional day indeed. Days like this always feel weird and sad. Weird because I'm leaving something that I've come to know so well to venture off into a somehow unknown future; sad because I'm leaving behind a load of memories and mainly because I know I'll be missing the team I spent most of my day with for over 8 months, so much. 

Why did I take this step? Well, I guess, I just felt the time was right to move on, all the omens were right, maybe the stars were in place too or whatever else you believe in.

I'm proud to have served here, and I'm proud of the wonderful work that I've done so far. Only time will tell what kind of impact that is going to have on the life of people. But I'll maintain my hopes up.

Saying good bye to people I've worked with, people I shared my time, sweat and blood with was the hardest thing ever. But it had to be done.

I had a wonderful farewell luncheon with my ex-colleagues at Secret Recipe last Friday. Today, I enjoyed my delicious lunch with them again. Thanks to the HR manager who treated me a slice of green tea cheese cake in the evening just now. 

Thanks for the chocolates, cup cakes and special cards! Thanks once again for the warm hugs from you all and also kisses from my boss! *teardrops in my heart*

I wish you all the best of luck in your future endeavors.  

 Thanks to Lyn for the delicious cup cakes!

 Thanks to Natalie for the chocolates! *I love chocolates*

 A special card from my supervisor, I was so touched especially when I have read this: "Proud to see how you have grown & matured with us and how far you have come in terms of your overall PR skills, social skills & out looking life"

 [Translation] Wish you all the best in the future and may your dream come true! Thanks for your guidance that you have provided to me.

A BIG THANK YOU!

Bel Pasto Italian Restaurant @ Kepong

According to Chinese tradition, the second day of the Chinese New Year is for married daughters to visit their parents while the third day (so called 'the God of Blazing Wrath') which is generally not a good day to socialize or visit relatives and friends.

But nowadays, people don't really follow the rules of culture. For me, I would not spend my whole day for doing nothing at home during the Chinese New Year as I know holiday is such a precious thing for working people. 

Well, I had a pleasant day with my high school friends. In the afternoon, we went to teacher's house to have lunch and after that we hopped to friend's house to collect ang pow. Before dinner, we watched a Cantonese movie 'I Love Hong Kong' which was nice and meaningful. I would say that the movie is a lot better than 'All's Well End's Well 2011'. 

luncheon at teacher's house

The front row (L-R): Kit Mun, Me, Pn. Doris, Peg Gee

The guys (L-R): Kian Ning, Clarence, Asyraf

We still keep in touch with our form 6 teacher since year 2008. Undeniable, she is a very good teacher that I will never ever forget her in the rest of my life *we love you, teacher*

Both of us look good in short hair, right? *laughs*

 (L-R): Me, Peg Gee, Kit Mun, Asyraf, Kian Ning *Clarence dumped us*

 @ Kam Pei's house

 

Dinner @ Italian Restaurant, Kepong

Speaking of Italian Restaurant, you might think of Italiannies but my friend recommended me this Bel Pasto, saying that they have the best Tiramisu.

 

Asyraf, thanks for bringing us to this awesome place for dinner! You made our day!

 Bel Pasto is an Italian Restaurant that is run by a Bosnian Chef

 Iced Blended Chocolate VS Iced Blended Mocha

 Fettucine Carbonara with Turkey Ham @ RM18.90

 Hawaii Pizza @ RM15.50 

(topped with tomato sauce, Mozzarella cheese, pineapples & ham)

 Lamb Shank @ RM25.90

(baked lamb shank served with fresh salad & Italian risotto)

 Spaghetti

 Caesar's Pizza @ RM18.50

(topped with tomato sauce, beef pepperoni, capsicum, turkey ham & mushrooms)

The star of the night gotta be the home made Tiramisu @ RM8.90, the famous Italian cake - full of Coffee aroma. Trust me, it's really delicious! A perfect ending to a great meal.

 Kian Ning & Asyraf

 Kam Pei & Kit Mun

 Kam Pei & Me

Nice outing with my high school friends *i had a great day*

p/s: Asyraf or Kit Mun, i look forward to your next planning for reunion =)

Bel Pasto Pizza Italian Restaurant
C-G-16, Jalan Metro Perdana 3
Taman Usahawan Kepong
52100 Kepong, Kuala Lumpur
Tel: 019 631 6377
GPS Coordinates: N3 12.547 E101 36.924

Tired

All parts of the human body get tired eventually....

I'm exhausted!  

Good night, my dear readers!

Quotes from Chicken Soup Book

Everyone loves a good miracle story, the Chicken Soup book provides more than 100 true stories about counting your blessing and having a positive attitude. 

If you have ever read this book, you would know how 'precious' the book is. I found out some meaningful quotes from the book I read yesterday -- Chicken Soup for Your Soul.

"You have to be yourself. Be very honest about who and what you are. And if people still like you, that's fine. If they don't, that's their problem". 

"Face the thing you fear, and you do away with that fear".

"Whatever you are doing, love yourself for doing it. Whatever you are feeling, love yourself for doing it."

"First say to yourself what you would be; and then do what you have to".

These quotes are really useful to me particularly for my own self-assessment and improvement in every aspect. I hope it would be helpful to you too. *wink*

The First Job is Important

In this post, I would just like to share something to everyone. Finding a job is not as easy as it seems but the most important thing is 'think carefully'. Some people might think 'got job is better than no job', so they might simply take a job first to gain experience. I'm stubborn, perhaps. That's why I kept finding for a more suitable job for myself. That's because I finally know what I want to be in the future. If you ask me what's my plan in the next 5 years, I would say that I wish to see myself as the top performing employee in a well-established company. 

My elder sister is right. During this few weeks, she kept saying :" Peng, the first job is very important. It will influence you in the future. Trust me because as what you see, I'm a good example". Some friends said just take whatever job you got, work and gain experience first. I just believe in what I've seen, I believe in my sister. Thanks God! I have found a good job as a PR Executive which is related to my study: media writing and soft-skills. Good luck everyone *wink*

My application has been approved~

I went for an interview at School of Global Service Management, PKNS this morning. As referred to my previous post, it's a 2-month training for fresh graduates or unemployed. The girl Vivian gave us briefing and interviewed us for about half an hour only.

This training costs about RM10,500 with BTEC level 3 Advanced certificate that recognized in UK and also 300 of universities all around the world but it's fully funded. *sounds good right?* For addition, they will provide us allowances of RM1000 and they will find company for us. We might be entitled to get into big company like Air Asia, Astro, Petronas, Shell, Genting, RHB Bank and 50 more partnership companies.

Another benefit is we can either take the job they offer to us or we find job our own. No contract. No bond. No worries. They have approved my application and what I need to do now is waiting for their call because the starting date of training is still unsure yet.

That's my back up plan. If I could able to find a good job, I might reject the training.

Mr. Good Job, Mrs. Excellent Job, Miss Awesome Job... please come and find me. Haha!

It's time to MOVE ON!

Look at the picture above. I could still remember the day when this picture was taken. Time passes so fast and my campus life was gone. 3 years! 3 years! Oh! But I know, it's time to move on. =)

I'm So Confused

"It Isn't As Easy As It Seems" -- It' so TRUE!

People always say that the world is complicated because thousands of people are living in a big community. The working environment is like a rose garden, full of THORN. One must be very careful with the people around and be alert all the time.

That's one of the reason of why i don't like roses. I like sunflowers. Sunshine in the paradise~~

I supposed to start my work today but I didn't go as I found out some negative comments about the company on the internet. Thanks to my dear classmate Lee San who reminded me of this last night. From the observation, I found out that the advertising & promotions company is doing something about sales. They said got no sales target or what but I don't think so. Sales people! I hate people cheating on others. I like to travel, meet new people, communicate and coordinate events but definitely not sales job.

I'm so confused. I don't want to work in the bank because I hate boring life. Routine job? NO WAY!

No Car. No Job.

I need a car!

Sigh....

Without my own transportation, I couldn't go to work in Astro, NTV7, 8TV, etc...

No public transport can reach there...

Those jobs which I'm interested in are mostly event/ media/ marketing...

No Car. No Job.

Exhausted!

I will be working in Fitness First 

from morning to evening for this 3 days...

After a hot shower, I feel like sleeping now...

So, sorry, I'll update my blog by Thursday ya...

Good night, my lovely blog readers *hugs*

Bad Day

I couldn't sleep well recently.
Have I been living a stressful life for the past few weeks?
I went to bed at before 12am,
But, I could only sleep at around 2 or 3am,
why is this happened?

When can I run out from this circle?
It's so suffering and agonizing!
Lack of sleep can lead to many problems,
Which is not only physically but also mentally.

I had a sleepless night yesterday which is quite common,
many things flashed through my mind ,
I kept thinking and thinking...
It ended up with - headache & paracetamol.
Am I just paranoid? I wish I am not.

I woke up at 9 o'clock this morning,
I felt jaded, definitely not in good mood.
When i was having part-time job training,
I could hardly memorize the given information.

During the role play session,
I was totally in sleeping mode & my brain couldn't function well.
I was failed to give a good answer when the girl asked me question.
But it doesn't matter, I'll practise more at home.

I had a good meal with my good friend, May.
More than 2 hours of chatting & laughing! 
She woke up early today, just to fetch me.
Fetching me to go and come back.
Thanks to her. May, I love you. *u made my day*
 
==========================================
Whenever I feel unpleasant, I don't want to stay here anymore.
You know, I don't like to be bounded! I need space!
I wish someone would just take me away.
Like Taylor Swift's love story: Just escape this town for a little while...
But I'm not as lucky as Juliet, she has Romeo and I don't have.

I'm desperate in need of a car!
At least when I feel pressured,
I can go to somewhere else instead of staying in the same place.
To relieve tension, calm down and breath!
I really enjoy driving slowly and listen to the music.

God, you don't give me a wing,
But please...
God, give me a car,
at least I can drive away.
God, can you hear me?

May. Eaven. Fellxion.

I'm glad that I've found loyal friends. 

They made me understand of what a true friend should be *wink*

Family is always the top. But friends are essential.

Paul the Octopus needs Hankerchief

Paul, the Octopus has become very famous after his 6 accurate predictions for the 2010 World Cup Football Finals for matches involving Germany and Spain. This brilliant German Octopus already stunned all the German fans and always predicted that Germany will win but for the World Cup 2010 Semifinal prediction between Spain vs Germany, Paul Octopus selected Spain.

Paul's life could be in danger threatened by angry Germans and now Spanish authorities are stepping in with suggestions to keep him.

"Nothing beats grilled octopus" said Germany fan.

"Cut him up in thin slices and grill him on all sides with dash of lemon juice, olive oil and garlic on it. Delicious!" According to Reuters, German newspapers and websites have been filled with suggestions of what to do with physic Paul -- "most involved cooking and eating him".

Will Paul become a dish on one day? Where is the humanity?

We know that all octopuses have 9 brains so we know he has exceptional power. We shouldn't put the blame on him because he's just a creature, not a human. If he would pick Germany instead of Spain, Paul would become the superstar in German; but Paul selected Spain and now everyone is talking about octopus recipe. 

 If Paul the Octopus know crying, his tears might be mixed with the water. Who knows?

What will Paul's predictions be for the World Cup Champion 2010?

I'm not a football fan and I didn't mean to support any team. Sorry if I have offended you guys.

Memory: Primary School Teacher

What have I been doing these days? Either stay at home or hang out with friends. After having break for almost 5 days, I think it's time to make up my mind and plan for my future life. I should take a pen and paper, list down everything about what I want to be. Easier said than done. I chatted with a friend on MSN yesterday, he gave me many valuable suggestions. Thanks to Weng Seng!

Today, I woke up at almost 12 o'clock in the afternoon. Oh my! Pig! I quickly washed my face and went downstairs for lunch. After having my meal, I started cleaning my study room because I am the one who always keep the house clean among my siblings. When I opened a paper box, I flipped through all the cards and letters that given by my ex-student when I was a teacher in a primary school last 3 years. 

Time come and gone, another 3 years have passed. I will never forget the precious moments in my life. Guess what? I was a primary school teacher in year 2007 while waiting out the STPM result for an half year. It was a very well known Chinese primary school -- Lick Hung (力行). I was the class teacher and the subjects I had taught were Chinese, Mathematics, Sciences, Moral, Sport, Music and extra-curricular activity (PBSM for standard 5 only).

Honestly, it's not bad to work as a teacher as the working schedule is fixed. But for a outgoing person like me, I prefer flexible job that I can communicate with people, always learn new things and challenge myself to get improved. *gambateh*

When I read through the cards and letters, it kindled the sorrow and grief in my heart. They were so innocent and pure. They were sincere in telling 'I love you'. I was like a 'queen' in the class. When I was in bad mood, they knew it and they would definitely keep quiet. When I was in good mood, they were happy to play with me. With using different skills in teaching different students, you can handle your students well. *wink*

'Thank You Teacher' Teddy bear - given by one of my handsome student boy, Ivan.
(He's a very proactive boy, always make noise in the class, but still he's a good boy.)

Part of the cards & letters. *heart melted*

Get well wishes? I don't remember I got sick that time. LOL

Is that me? The girl dressed in Red? So pretty, huh?

Look at the handwork! Really great thought!

Why write 'To: Sun Lee Peng' at the bottom? *laughed*

'I Love You'

A handmade card from an excellent student.
(A big love in the front page, a million of  written 'thank you' when open the card)

A cute diary book from my favourite student.
(I really like her so much as she's cute & nice!)

Summary/ Translation: When I get to know teacher you are going to leave us soon, I feel so sad. I know you will go on to university, so I'll pray hard for you. I have so much to tell you, but I don't know where to start. Thanks for always encourage me, I will never forget you. You are really a good teacher. Although you might be strict sometimes, but I know you did it for my good. I love you, Miss Sun!

A Malay-Chinese mixed student made this story letter for me. What a creative way to say thank you!
*I miss you all, my lovely students*

Another bigger Teddy bear given by a flabby boy. He's a top student, cute and chubby!

I know that my students love me so much! Even their parents also told me : "Miss Sun, my son/ daughter is really like you, he/she only remember what you had told him/her". Some parents told me that their son/ daughter cried when I almost leaving the school.

 I believe in karma: People treat you in the way you treat them.